Things turn out best for those who make the best of the way things turn out

My birthday is Sunday and I am pretty freaking excited! We have to go food shopping for Thanksgiving but that should be kind of fun. We might be going to Buffalo Wild Wings for my birthday but we will see. Thanksgiving is on Thursday and I feel like I still have so much to do. I don't have to much left to clean but there is tons of food that needs cooking. We are making: Turkey, Chicken Parm, mashed potatoes smooth and lumpy, roasted potatoes, stuffing, salad, veggie tray, bread, green beans, corn, cranberry sauce, pie, gravy, and more! It is going to take forever but it will all be worth it! I think we will have about ten people here but we invited like twenty so who knows. It is going to be a busy week and I can not be lazy I have to get everything done. I am so going shopping on Black Friday then online shopping for Cyber Monday!!!

Darin went to a friends mom's house to spend the night so him and his friend can go hunting early in the morning. I really hope he gets a deer! If he does I am sure we will have deer meat for a while.

November 23rd (Tuesday) is one year since we left Las Vegas to move to Minot. November 28th is our one year anniversary in Minot, North Dakota. I will have to post a blog on that day looking back on our year here.

As Thanksgiving grows closer I cant help but miss my family more and more. Thanksgiving was always a great day and tons of fun. They even celebrated Thanksgiving early last year so we could be there before we moved. I am excited that Darin and I now have the chance to start our own traditions.

Bad Dreams

I always remember having bad dreams. When I was younger I had two bad dreams that would repeat and it sucked. Before we moved I had a bad dream about a Lion that scared the crap out of me and it repeated for at least a year and a half. When we moved all my bad dreams stopped! It was great to only have happy or weird dreams. Then a few months ago I had a dream that I was making Cinnamon Rolls and Darin walked in the house and said "I am leaving you" then just left. That dream really bothered me but I have not had it since that night. About a week ago I had a dream that I was pregnant and all of a sudden the baby was gone. No miscarriage, no bleeding, and no pain just there one minute and gone the next minute. Then the other night I had a dream I was bleeding. Both dreams really bothered me and I woke right up and could not sleep for a while after. I really don't like having bad dreams as I am sure no one does. I just hope that none of my new bad dreams start to repeat!

Friends

Darin and I had game night with Brittany and Will! It was so much fun. The night was cut a little short because I got sick. We will be doing another game night very very soon! Thanks Brittany and Will for my birthday gift!! I love it so much and I cant wait to put a picture in it and hang it up! Oh and chocolate gravy is so good. I think Brittany wants us to weigh 900 pounds because she tried to send the rest home with us. D not N!! lol

I got an email from a friend tonight and I cried reading it. She is so thoughtful and caring. The email meant so much to me! She is truly a great friend!

I had a really bad dream this morning. I was pregnant one minute and then the next minute the baby was gone. It felt so real I jumped out of bed at 5:30am and could not go back to sleep till almost 7am. It had bothered me all day. I was sitting on the couch crying and Shadow was being so cute cuddling with me while I cried. Once I stopped crying Shadow, Spooky, and I ate some orange yogurt and the way they eat made me laugh. They are so cute!

Right now I am watching Darin play the new black ops. When he is done we are going to snuggle and watch a movie or some tv. I love spending time with my husband! He means the world to me. I love laying in bed with him with my head on his chest just listening to his heart beat. Today may have been a day full of emotions but I am truly lucky!

Days turn into weeks, weeks turn into months, will it ever end?

Sorry it has been so long. It has been a crazy week in my house and only getting more crazy. Last night was so much fun. Darin and I went out with Brittany and Will and we could not have had a better time! It is so great to make some amazing friends! We are going to have a game night on Monday! (As long as the Air Force does not make the guys work) We are working on getting the house ready for Thanksgiving and believe me it is some slow going. When Darin is not working all I want to do is spend time with him relaxing not cleaning. It is hard to clean all day while he is sleeping because I don't want to wake him up. I need to get a twin size bed frame so we can move that bed into Shadow and Spooky's room sometime hopefully with in the next month. I need to stop getting so annoyed and bothered by the little things. I am just ready for my house to be perfect again! Well I am off to snuggle with my hubby!

To Drive or Not To Drive

We want to go to North Carolina next year to visit family. I do NOT like flying at all and really don't want to go if we have to fly. To drive to North Carolina from here is only like twenty five hours but if we go to Vegas first it is twenty two hours to Vegas then thirty eight hours to North Carolina. If Darin can't get alot of time off work then driving may be out all together. I would want to go to Vegas first so we can drop off Shadow and Spooky so my mom can watch them so we would have to stop there on the way home too. In my head it sounds like the perfect plan but after saying it out loud it sounds crazy that I would drive out of my way so mom can watch the cats instead of just having a friend come over here once a day and feed them. I really don't like leaving Shadow and Spooky alone. Since the miscarriage I just feel like if I am not with them or watching them something bad is going to happen. I know it is a little crazy but I really feel if I leave them for too long they might die or something. If we don't drive Darin will fly but I really do not want to fly ever again. Even if we get stationed over seas I will be on a boat. I truly do hate flying! I guess I have more then enough time to change my mind but this is how I feel right now. Crazy huh? Well I guess that is all for tonight.

Getting Ready...

Well it is after Halloween but before Thanksgiving so that means it is time to clean and get the house ready. We are having Thanksgiving here at the house this year. I am going to Hobby Lobby today to get the invitations today! I love Hobby Lobby, I could spend hours in that store. I think after Thanks giving we are going to get a real Christmas tree! I am pretty excited to see how Shadow and Spooky react to a tree. My birthday is coming up and I can't wait. Oh I almost forgot I finally got Skype. Sorry it is a short blog but not much is going on and I have to go get ready to go out.

Halloween

First let me say Halloween is my favorite holiday. I love candy, being scared, and the fall season. I love carving pumpkins and I use to like dressing up. This year Darin is working and I am sitting in bed watching scary movies. I will not be handing out candy this year. I really don't think I could do it alone. I know it sounds stupid that I need my hubby to help me pass out candy but I do. I know I will cry and be too emotional. Not only do we not have kids but I would be 7 months pregnant and all the kids dressed up and the pregnant mothers will just remind me of that. Maybe it is mean or selfish but I don't really care. What is better being happy watching movies or passing out candy to kids while I cry? I think I will pick movies and happy. Maybe next Halloween will be different but for now I am happy doing what I am doing. I made Halloween cupcakes for my friends sons kindergarten class the other day and they came out great. My friend said everyone loved them. It was tons of fun and Darin even helped a little. Here is an example of how emotional I have been: My friends son gave me a spider ring and my friend said while they were getting them his son said "daddy I am going to get one for Brianna" I totally cried. He is five and it is just so cute that he thinks of me.

We are going to get the pottery we painted on Tuesday and I can't wait to see them. I am sure they came out great! My birthday is coming and I am pretty excited about it. I love birthdays even though it means I am getting older. Ok well I am off to watch some movies! Have a great night everyone.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!