sorry it has been so long!

I got sick on Thanksgiving night and I really wanted to die! Darin went to Game Stop for black Friday shopping and when he got home we went to the ER. I was dehydrated and the doctor said it looks like I have stomach flu. I still feel pretty sick but with all the pills they gave me I am feeling better. I am so thankful to have the husband I do! He has been great, taking care of me and doing stuff around the house. I am so lucky he is here for me!

Baby news/ Infertility news: as you all know we are on a TTC break for now. One year ago today we saw our second baby's heartbeat and it was the most amazing thing I have ever seen! It sucks that we are not trying right now but I know we are doing what is best.

Moving news: we are getting closer and closer to moving and we are both crazy excited! Darin will be going to school and I will be going to bar tending school when we get back to Vegas. Then we will figure out what we want to do after that and where we want to go.

Michelle Duggar is having a baby!

I have seen it all over the internet, Michelle Duggar is pregnant with their 20th child. I have spoke to many people about this and I am one of the few infertiles not upset about it. I have talked to many infertiles and some of them do not have very nice things to say. I love watching 19 Kids and Counting, some of the episodes are hard to watch but most of them are awesome. I love to watch their family and love some of the advice they give. I have always wanted to have a huge family. When Darin and I got married we were not on the same page about how many children we wanted. Now after dealing with infertility and losing the babies we have decided once we have one child we are done trying forever. All in all I am very happy for the Duggar family, they seem like a great loving family. I do get sad when I hear someone is pregnant but only if that person is doing more harm then good. Do I want to hear that someone on welfare is pregnant with baby number 3 and the baby daddy is in jail? Not at all!!! Although I do not mind hearing when great people get pregnant.

November 3rd 2010

One year ago today I found out I was pregnant for the second time. Today has had its hard points. I want so badly to be pregnant but we are taking a TTC break. We have not given up and we never will. It is hard to look back on this day. I was so said our first baby had died and so excited to be given another chance. I remember being so afraid to move! I didn't want anything to go wrong, I wanted to be able to see and hold this baby. Although losing another baby was hard I found a great amount of peace being able to hold this baby. Maybe by this time next year we will be pregnant or have a baby!