Thursday, March 12, 2015

what lifestyle consumes you?

Again it has been way too long since I have had a chance to be on here. Blogging use to be such a huge part of my life now I am consumed with the happenings of a toddler. Years ago I never thought I would be in this position and I never thought I would be a mother. I use to judge people that struggled to get pregnant then "forgot" about their struggle quickly after having a baby. Now I know that is not the case. I have not forgotten about my struggle with infertility, I still cry about it from time to time, it still hurts, but it is not consuming me anymore. When I was trying to become a mother I was infertile, it was a part of me it was who I was. Now that I am a mother that is a part of me and who I am. I am not consumed by the infertile "lifestyle" I am consumed by the mother "lifestyle" and looking back I should not have let the infertility define me. I should have been stronger, I should not have let it consume me but I feel the same way now about motherhood, I should be stronger and I should not let it consume me. I was happy with my life overall years ago and I am still happy today. I am a better person today because of my struggles. I am sure when I am old I will look back on my life and smile. I will smile because I made it through the bad and enjoyed the good. I will smile because it will all come together in the end.