is this about me?

I somtimes get e-mails or phone calls asking me if a post is about them. If the post was about the person I tell them when they ask. I do not write anything on my blog that I would not say to a persons face. Some post I have a person ot two in mind sometimes it is just a random rant about something I read on facebook. If you have a question, comment, rant, issue, etc with anything I write then talk to me about it.

7 months old

7 months old today! This month went by so fast. We are doing baby led weaning. Baby led weaning means we are not feeding Aidan purees. We are giving him solid food and he is feeding himself. We had watermelon the other day and Aidan LOVED it! We are not giving him much food. Food before 1 is just for fun. Breast milk is all Aidan needs. Aidan is rolling over way more now. He is pulling himself up to stand. He has been sitting on his own for a while now. He is trying so hard to crawl and is very close! He can now sit himself up from a laying position. It is amazing how strong our little baby is. Aidan puts his arms up when he wants to be held. He is just an amazing baby!

dream come true

I’m not sure how I want to start this blog. I have been thinking about all the things I want for Aidan. I want him to have a great life. I want him to be happy. I do not ever want him to know the pain of infertility! Darin and I went through alot to bring Aidan into this world I hope he is able to have kids easily. I will forever be here to love and support my son no matter what he chooses to do. I will never judge him if he does things differently than Darin and I. I will back him up and help him if he needs me. I do not think it is right for family to judge each other. Family should just be happy for family. Aidan’s life will be different than ours, I will make sure we never judge him or look down at him. I hope Aidan gets to do everything he wants to do in life. I hope he is a lawyer or doctor, yes I have high hopes and I know he can do it. I want Aidan to find love and be loved. Aidan was our dream come true and his life will be his dream come true.

my dad

Every once in a while I will look at Aidan from a weird angle and see my dad. It has been 15 years since my father passed away. My sister, mom, grandmother, and I were at Disney World. I remember one day my grandfather called and my mom had to talk to him alone so my grandmother took my sister and me out. I knew that meant bad news. I remember laying in bed that night just knowing someone had died. The first thing I said to myself was “it can not be my dad; he is too young to die.” When we got back from Disney World my mom sat us down in my grandparent’s living room. She told us our dad had died. I started crying and Becky (6 years old at the time) started to laugh. She was sure my mom was joking. I regret not seeing him in his coffin at the funeral. For years I thought he was still alive and he was going to find me soon. I can not even tell you how many times I wished he was alive when I blew out my birthday candles. The last time I talked to my dad he was canceling yet another visit with us and I told him I hated him and never wanted to talk to him again. I wish I could go back in time and change that. There have been tons of times I wish I could call him with good news. If I knew then what I know now that last conversation would have been very different.

fall...

Aidan fell off the bed! It was terrifying! I was in the bathroom and Darin was downstairs. I put Aidan in the middle of the bed like I always do. He is moving around a lot now but I did not think he could make it from the middle of the bed off the side. I ran in the room and picked him up. He cried for a min or two but calmed down. I got him naked to make sure everything was ok. He was laughing and playing with daddy while I touched him all over to make sure nothing was hurt or broken. We called the doctor and the nurse said to just keep an eye on him for the next 24 hours. He is eating well and acting normal. He slept good last night and is acting normal today. I cried more then Aidan did!