We will be moving back to Nevada for a few months. I think we are leaving North Dakota in December but that is not for sure yet. I am so very excited to see my family again and live close to them for a bit! We will be taking a road trip to North Carolina shortly after we move to see Darin's family! I am so excited to be starting this new adventure with my husband!
A few months ago and even just last week I was so focused on things in the past that I wanted to do over or change. I was consumed with guilt and mad at myself for so much. I have come to see that some things are out of my control. Focusing on the past will not do me any good and I cant change anything. I need to focus on the here and now and move forward. I still carry some guilt and I think I always will. I still blame myself but only because there is no one else to blame. I want to be happy and living with the "what ifs" and "maybes" are not making me happy. I need to let go of the things I can not control and focus on the things I can control. From this day on I will try my very hardest to not live in the past, I will live in the present and look towards the future!
My husband and I are so lucky to have the things we do! We are lucky to be so much in love! We are lucky to be debt free and have a nice savings account. We are lucky to have such great families. Most of all we are lucky to have each other and to have our babies! We would not be the couple we are today with out our children and they will always be in our hearts!
No matter what happens or where life brings us we will be together. At the end of the day all I need is my husband.