Aidan

I am so lucky that Aidan is such a good baby! He hardly ever cries and he sleeps through the night! He is smiling all the time and he has laughed a couple times. I am still pumping and bottle feeding but he is latching onto my boob more and more. He means the world to me and we are having so much fun with him! When I was struggling with infertility and the miscarriages women I knew that had been through the same thing then had children always told me it would be worth it. I use to hate that advice. I never thought all the heartache and pain would ever seem worth it. Now when I look at Aidan and hold him in my arms I know what all those women meant. Everything I had been through leading up to this day was worth it. Without our struggles we would not have had such a perfect baby. With out all the heartache I would not know how special it is that Aidan is alive. I would not love Aidan as deeply as I do. When being a mommy seems hard I always think about our struggle and I am instantly happy again. I would never wish infertility and miscarriage on anyone but it has really opened my eyes. I don’t complain about the baby I worked hard to have and Aidan never gives me a reason to complain. When I don’t get the diaper on fast enough and Aidan pees or poops everywhere I can’t help but laugh. When he is crying and I feed him I cannot help but smile. When he wants to snuggle and falls asleep on my chest I hold him for as long as he wants. My life stops for him and nothing else matters. Aidan is the most amazing son and I am trying to be the most amazing mother. When Aidan is old I want him to look back at his life and be able to remember all the good things and smile!