Friday, May 4, 2012
mother's day
As Mother’s day grows closer and closer I am not sure how I feel. I am sad as I think about Weylin and Holly but excited to think of this baby. Sometimes I can’t help but think why me? Why am I infertile? Why did I loose two babies? Why and I lucky enough to be pregnant again? There are so many infertile couples that should be pregnant as well. I am so happy to be this far along and I am so excited the baby is healthy so far. Mother’s day is a reminder of what I have always wanted. I have always wanted to hold my baby in my arms! I don’t want to mourn the lose of my children, I don’t want to be sad when I look at the past, and I don’t want to be judged for the pain I feel. As I sit here writing tears of joy are running down my face. I love that I have another opportunity to have a baby. I want nothing but the best but I can’t help but think of the worst.
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Considering what you have been through, it's completely understandable that you "can't help but think of the worst." You are SO amazing. Even after two miscarriages and all of the challenges you have experienced these past several years, you never gave up. I admire and look up to you in so many ways. You are going to me a fantastic mother and I am SO happy for you and your husband!
ReplyDeletethanks Courtney! there have been so many times i have wanted to give up but i am so glad i didnt!
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy that i get to see you mothers day i love you so much and im so happy that your pregnant
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on your pregnancy, that's amazing!!!
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